I want...........

I want to suffer and die, I want to be the one on the street barely making it through life, I want to be the one nearly dying from lack of food and water, I want to be the one to die next. I want to be the one to have nothing but suffrage, and pain and for no one to have any remorse for me. Silly people who don't care, understand why I'm not there in case you want to know how to die come over here, I'll show you how to fly, something's wrong do you realize? I won't be here long everyone's different...You hurt me badly my heart bursting, the pain I feel the blood I see... await, await, await another day...

No one notices,
No one cares
No one knows that I'm even there
An empty shadow
A lonely shell
A lost soul in neither heaven nor hell
For a lost soul like me
happiness is impossible to find
because the only friend is darkness divine;
I'm wanting to waste away in the sands of time
where peace shall finally be mine.....